Returning to Yourself

Just today I came across a piece of writing one of my daughters sent me a few years ago.

She’d written an account of her thoughts and observations leading into an interaction we’d had a year after I began a new chapter in my life.

Reading it again stirred my emotion, and my gratitude, for what she’d delivered to me that day.

The account of events she’d written about was true.

What hit me was how, back then, she could clearly see something which I was so unaware of.

I was living alone. Working. Keeping busy.

Doing what needed to be done.

I remember living it - I thought everything was reasonably okay.

What my daughter saw so clearly though, was me… just surviving.

I wasn’t conscious of it.

I felt I was just quietly going about my life, filling my days, doing what needed to be done.

But somewhere along the way, I'd lost connection with what was actually making me feel alive.

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I think many people find themselves here.

We fulfill our responsibilities, deal with disappointments, give our help where needed…

And little by little, without ever making a conscious decision, we can drift away from ourselves.

Not completely. Just enough to feel that something is missing.

It's one of the things I hear most often in conversations with people.

Not "I need more success."

or "I need another qualification."

It’s not even "I need more confidence."

What I hear over and over, is "I just feel like there's more for me."

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And that’s what I was jolted into the awareness of, on that day, all those years ago.

It wasn’t that I wanted more things or more achievement.

I just wanted to be more of myself.

To feel more alive. To experience more joy.

To express more honestly what I truly wanted.

The piece of writing touched me so deeply when I read it again.

My heart welled up with the conviction that we are here to live fully and unapologetically who we are.

To live fully, on purpose, and experience joy.

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If this stirs you, I invite you to check in with yourself this week.

Look at your calendar and the tasks you have laid out ahead of you, and ask:

-       Which of these things do I really love doing?

-       Which of these things do I loathe doing?

-       Where would I like to schedule those things I want to do - that I keep putting off?

Make time for you to be you, and do what lights you up.

Di ♡

p.s. I hear people say "I know there's more for me" all the time. What does "more" look like for you? I'd genuinely love to hear your answer. Simply hit reply and let me know

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